Sapta Sagaradache Ello

So i decided to watch Sapta Sagaradachello. My memory of the movie is me coming out of the theatre, all alone, my nose running, eyes red and sleeves full wet with tears and it wasn't even the first time. I watched it in the big screens during BIFFES and before that in Prime Video.

Lately people have been telling me that I am laughing too much and I'll soon cry, like seriously jinxing my happiness? But whatever. I decided to take things into my own hands and was like yeah let's watch it.

10 minutes into the film, I start bawling my eyes out. By the end of Side B, my pillow was soaking wet. I cried so bad that I had to ice my eyes before heading to office.

 
The entire movie is my biggest fear in life, being left out in love, giving up love for love, cause i ain't that selfless. I would have hold on to Manu, he could have not met me the entire time and I still would have waited for him.

But more than my Manu pushing me off, what if I become Manu? What if I know that i have to push them away, yet still yearn for them? I would have also definitely killed the dog, and did the entire things Manu did for Priya.

The scene, where she couldn't sing, because her singing was always connected to Manu broke me. (I am crying as i write)
I still can't look at a Karavali restaurant without thinking 'Manu should have had better'.

I thought I'll write a review, about how I loved the movie but all I can think of how gut wrenching the movie is.

 
How hard I try to hold my tears back when Spotify decides to play Kadalanu out of nowhere and i just see Priya, standing there unable to sing.

Everytime I see a shell, I see Priya talking to Manu about settling down near the coast.

I hate this movie for breaking me everytime I think of it, I hate the movie for showing me something real, I hate myself for watching it again.

100000000/10